Is it over (yet)?

Target 1 : Pass Atma admission test.
Target 1, failed.

Target 2 : Good grades in preparation course's TOs.
Target 2, failed.

Target 3 : Pass grades requirements to have the test.
Target 3, failed.

Target 4 : SIMAK
Target 4, system is not ready.

See?
That's it.

When things don't go right, it does seem useless to proceed.
Answers are around the bush and choices are eager to be chosen.
"Pick me! Pick me!", they said.
Like they never realize how they keep bouncing away out of my hands.

How would I make my day?

Tell me, O, blue star.
How do you turn your self white?
Stop pretending, as if you're calm.
Burning within you obviously sensed.

Chill your self, shed the tears.
Take my hand and forget the feel.
Reload your gun and keep fighting.
The war's coming and you're sitting here.

There will be time to retreat.
You'll call it a day and be fulfilled.
There is no endless despair.
As long as you're on your way.

A Plan..

It's raining..it's raining..
Wipe your window that you'll clearly see through it..
Will there be waving trees..?
Will there be a small bird having it self shaded..?

I realize that my purpose of writing is not to be seen..
I'm just indulging my self with my own writings, desires, explorations..
lonely_dandelion has been a place, it can't be more than it self..

Lately, I've been also thinking of writing a new story..but I'm still dealing with my own simply-reckless-English. I'll also have less energy to continue my survival in this complicated world.

However, some common secret problems as a loner started to show it's appearance among some close persons. So, the plan is, to make a story about this happening? You know, it's just a plan..plus, I might be wrong..

Hail to nobody..!

As the raindrops fall..

I walked through the rain..
It wasn't cold, I'm sure..
I couldn't feel the warmness either..

I'm facing a mistake..
Should I keep going?
Or should I deny my faith?

The only thing I felt is the falling raindrops..
Each of them..
Right on my head..my shoulders..and my feet..

I'm not either crying..
Nor laughing..
I don't know what to say..
All I feel is pain..

I don't want the sun back..
I think I'm going to stay..
if the clouds are on my way..

I'm not needing help..
And people are against me bitterly..
I just need a heart to stay still..
A listener not a complainer..

The ways are fading..
I don't need flash-light..
I just want to feel the raindrops on my head..

All I need is energy..
To get through this..

Dear Dandelion...

Fly away my dandelion...fly away...!
Expand the sight of the world

and make them see

what you can do
what you can be

Show your light in the darkness...show it off...!
Bring back the joy of the world
A joy of breath
in the deepest sea
where no one will ever be

Lay back my dear...lay back your self...!
Tell them how life's tiring
and you need rest
No need to concentrate
All you need is peace

Be ready for the next chapter...be ready...!
To think that changes might fail
and force you to forfeit
For the truth
is not always what you see